for wad u did.. im fadin away

2005-06-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

MOVED

2005-06-07T12:50:00.000+08:00

feel so weird-notmyselffeel so stupid-thinkingofthepastfeel like smiling-cosofyoufeel like dying-itsalloverits just sth i cant comprehen with only words.feel a certain apprehension about the the decision i've made.thinking of it now.i dunwanna go back.hoping time will cure everything.breakthrough

2005-06-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

untitled//simple plani open my eyesi try to see but im blinded by the white lighti cant remember howi cant remember whyim lying here tonightand i cant stand the painand I cant make it go awayno I cant stand the painhow could this happen to mei made my mistakesi've got no where to runThe night goes onAs Im fading awayIm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meeverybody's

2005-06-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

im gonna smile.like nothing'swrong.talk like everything's perfectact like its all a dream;walk awayn pretend its not hurtingmeeverytime i look back;memorieswill start flashing back.timeswe used to be so happy together.maybe its all a dreamif its not, shall take it as a dream

2005-06-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

hilary duff//someone's watching over mefound myself todayoh i found myself and ran awaysomething pulled me backthe voice of reason i forgot i hadall i know is you're not here to saywhat you always used to saybut its written in the sky tonightso i wont give upno I won't break downsooner than it seems life turns aroundand i will be strong even if it all goes wrongwhen im standing in the dark i'll

2005-06-05T11:45:00.000+08:00

ystd's cell wad great!!me-meishi went rd parkway to search for the cake!its cOoL!!played whacko.den held a lil` celebration for sihuii`!!den worship led by camy.it rocks!!whatever they says,its just what my heart is feeling.so confuse yet did not know what to do.god did sth in my life.cleansing my sins.held me up.pulled me strong.telling me he's there for me.everything he did is for a reasonhis

2005-06-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

im trying to let go.n i can get over it.though it hurts,but im not gonna go back.i caught tht look in the bus.but must i catch it.feeling happy but confuse.im gonna b firm with my decision.this is the test god is putting me thru.im gonna make the decision right.the decision lies with me.n me alone.im gonna stay firm with it.cos i know,its totally impossible for us.im letting it go.GOD will see me

2005-06-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

i've been struggling this kinda of problemsince the starting of the year.i dun wanna struggle anymore.the pain is just gonna kill me anytimenow i've alr stepped outi dun wanna step back in agn.but with so many contradictions from everyone n YOUi have the urge to go back inbut i dun wanna get hurt agn.it hurts`i dun wanna spend so much time on youits just so wasteful geddit??when u dun even

2005-06-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

because you live//jesse mccartneystaring out at the rain with a heavy heartits the end of the world in my mindthen your voice pulls me back like a wake up calli've been looking for the answersomewherei couldnt see tht it was right therebut now i know what i didnt know because you live and breathebecause you make me believe in myself when nobody else can helpbecause you live, girlmy world has

2005-06-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

me n xuebs were early today!!hahas.last few days were late n took cabcos of me.damn guilty lanp was doing some rollcalling or sth.was fun - making fun of ppl.yeps.den went back for our prep.it was alrigght..my sqd finally did sth nice.n i meann really nice.went town with xuebs n angeline.was kinda boredd.den went to meet huii-fangs-michy-evan.spirit was high after tht.wanna say sth here but i

2005-06-01T17:02:00.000+08:00

just came back home..flashbackk-morning had a slacky np session.it was really a slack one pls.everybody talking-gossiping i guess.or only the few of us.guess vanessa n valerie cant stand us.cos WE cant b serious nw..partly,we r one bunch of stupid pplwhom they claim we are.secondly,lower rank.thirdly,no sense of responsibilitythey nv even give us anything to do.how the responibility come out??out

2005-05-31T19:22:00.000+08:00

came online to change my blogskin.went to make my ic.so dumb pls.almost lose my way.after tht went with raina to get my new phone.first time trade in my phone.quite dumb la.on the way home..mum ask me to get a prepaid cardgot tht 22bucks prepaid m1 cardquite dumb lo.only help me to minimise my msging.BUT its better den nth.lalalallalala.im HIGH((:i still rbm the way u look at me

2005-05-31T10:16:00.000+08:00

its such a boring day at home alonee.did my math homework.did tht like before the camp pls.haven been doing my things.has been wasting my time like nobody's business.wanted to do chinese.but i dont understand!!still have to read the chinese storybookwhich the teacher claim tht its nicen understandable..but after reading one page.i dun even understand.oh wells,i sucks at chinesei hate being at

2005-05-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

i'd do anything//simple plananother day is going byim thinking about you all the timebut you're out thereand im here waitingand i wrote this letter in my headcuz so many things were left unsaidbut now you're goneand i cant think straightthis could be the one last chance to make you understandi'd do anythingjust to hold you in my armsto try to make you laughcuz somehow i cant put you in the

2005-05-29T15:29:00.000+08:00

we belong together//mariah careyi didnt mean itwhen i said i didnt love you soi should have held on tighti never should've let you goi didn't know nothingi was stupidi was foolishi was lying to myselfi couldnt have fathomed tht i would everbe without your lovenever imagined i'd besitting here beside myself'cause i didnt know you'cause I didnt know mebut i thought i knew everythingi never feltthe

2005-05-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

rewind back n think.hmmm..it has been days since i last blogged.tue went for cip trip.first to NEWater den to botien temple.btw,botien temple is an old folk home.NEWater saw dis lil' BOY who is abt 4-5years old.he's called shotaro.HE rules pls.so cute but he hurt his lil' finger.ate lunch at botien temple.performed.dis old man so cute.he sang for us during teabreak.den did some cleaning up

2005-05-19T16:28:00.000+08:00

im like nw at raina's hse.today is the last day of studying of dis term..today nth new happens.but angeline was the ultimate one.whole day making me go crazy.but its alright.packed the klasroom.its like so neat n tidy after so many million years.checked my results,it sucks totally.i deproved.

2005-05-09T16:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm,,nw at seetoh's gannies hse.using her comp to do art.n nw,,we r like doing nthbut talking.anyway,my comp is down..thanks to who??my good sister. hahas. shant complain.

2005-05-07T12:14:00.000+08:00

wenxin really talk me out ystd.im able to let go i guess.hope i cann.weiwen is oversensitive.i guess.everything is gonna b alright,after some time.believe in yourself.haf some confidence n u can do it.okay,shall apply it to myself.okay, im out of point agn.

2005-05-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

what makes you different by bsbohh oh yeahyou dont run with the crowdYou go your own wayYou dont play after darkYou light up my dayGot your own kind of styleThat sets you apartBaby that's why you've camptured my heartI know sometimes you feelLike you don't fit inAnd this world doesn't knowWhat you have withinWhen i look at youI see something rareA rose that can grow anywhereAnd theres no one i

2005-05-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

went suntanning wif mich.huii.sandra.fatli.dere's no sun dere at all.but we juz slept at the float.wif dat stupid fatli talking nonstop.its was kana fun n boring at first.saw many many pl-lites.halfway, wenta makan.den baq to the float.went to the shore to build sand castle.went baq to the float.came baq to the shore.castle destroyed.bathe-ed.went to makan agn.home-ed.so tiring pls.but i enjoyed

2005-05-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

im juz emotionally unstable.cant think too much nw.i really quite dumb rercently.cuz take dis period of torture.wad for make dis kind of shitwhen i noe i cant do it in the first place.gosh!! im juz out of my mind mans.but wad can i do nw??its juz too late.dats y i say i am really dumb.shall stop the agreement tmr..yes!!i cant pull dis torturous period without you mans.best!! i started the thingy

2005-05-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

today dun haf to stand for silent readingcuz lena koh forgot abt it.yeps. dun haf to help pple block the sun.n i got a st8 view to make fun of ppl.went baq to klas.eunice ho was talking to everyone in klas abt lit essay writing.i did alright..but re-doing to get higher marks.music was boring, really boring.sheryl ting was like killing us.chinese did compo, was writing out of point.but who cares

2005-05-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

today after skul had np.hahas. practiced guitar in the klas.my fingers r like hardened nw.plss. so painful.but anyway, i really enjoy it,.hahs.the sec2's really slack today.guess my sqd too nice to dem le.but who cares rite??

2005-05-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

went for suntanning like ard 12plus.den reach dere ard 1plus.tann till ard3.45 den went to change.cuz the water is like shit.the sun is even worse.dunwanna make me tanner.but jinjin really tanned la.cuz i think morning sun is da best.shall try it nxt week.hahas.anyway, really happy last night.duno why too.

2005-05-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

ystd went for servise.its was abt overcoming disappointment.it really helped me..anw.. ate fried rice for dinner.den the cell meeting was fun.den yeps.sihuii's dad fetched us home.mindy brought eve to church.she accepted christ ystd.hahas.

2005-04-30T00:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today went for art fest.it rawks.haha. esp the first few performances.i juz love the plcb. guitar performance.heh. okayy.everyone wasnt in the mood for the last few performance.oksy.after everything wenta chomp chomp to makan.den to serangoon garden macs slack.home-ed

2005-04-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

since im like so free nw.i shall try to think baq.today had lit first period.i was listening to the ho alrights.finally i can say.music was a free period.did my farewell thingy,finalize everything.by the time i wanna studyfor my chinese test,found out i dun haf the time.guess im juz gonna fail it mans.recess-ed.the rest of the lessons are boring.stayed baq to play soccer, bball n badminton.did

2005-04-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

weiwen is finally baq.im almost killed myself.juz deleted the virus off my comp.hope i wont restore it baq.hahas. quite stupid of me to restore it into the comp.okay. baq to the topic.went to get a bag today.came baq n found out dat i dun really like it afterall.but who cares.noone is gonna see it.went town tgt wif beatx n bekah.was talking abt sth.okay, shant elaborate.yeps. i lost my farewell

2005-04-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

I juz felt so serious suddenly.Mayb its cuz of the responsibility im holding on right nw.The post in np.The things my sqd muz do to build the whole np unit.Its juz so pressurizing I guess.I juz cant let any seconds go by me.I juz felt dat at dis point of time, I cant play anymore.Being a sec3 is juz so tough.Being a senior is worst.Hais.Everything is juz gonna go on like dis.Im gonna b serious in

2005-04-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

todayy was alright.dats wad i can say.wanna blog in the afternoon.but cant cuz..my comp kana the duno duno wad.den raina's ah ma really help me alot.but i duno her name.juz wanna thnk her for helping me.n yes. hahawent for service.it was alright.everyone's dere munching all the way.weiwen did too.i was listening at the same time too.went for cell.ate curry puff n bubble tea.mindy din go cuz she

2005-04-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

today is another boring day.it comes n goes juz like a tortise crawling.okay, its dumb.pe was the second period.ran my 2.4agn.it was kinda better den my first n second attempt.but it wasnt well ran.recess-ed.sth happen.it juz nt right.haf been thinking till nw,n i still haben get the answer.went up for alpfa camp briefing by lena koh.was looking forward to it.yays. im so excited.geog was

2005-04-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

tmr haf ss test.hais. intend to studyn guess wad??i forgot to bring the notes baq!!duno howta study without the notes.gosh!!juz gonna fail wif flying colors.n the maths test today,im prepared to fail.n yes!!tmr is friday!!im looking forward to tmr cans.n finally its here.yays! okay, im crazy

2005-04-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

over by linsay lohanI watch the walls around me crumbleBut its not like I wont build them up againSo heres your last chance for redemptionSo take it while it lasts cause it will endMy tears are turning into timeIm wasting trying to finda reason for goodbyeI cant live with youcant breathe without youI dream about youHonestly tell me tht its overCause if the world is spinningand Im still living,it

2005-04-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

nth much happen today..everythings seems to weird today.but during the math period.sth nice happened.gosh!! bet i wont forget dat moment.but afterall the skul was okay.wasnt in the mood to think baq.everything seems to happen the way i didnt wan it to.i really wan to gif up.but everything is like sudd so nice.nicer den wad i wanted last time.which is like the past alr..arg!! i duno wad am i

2005-04-17T19:48:00.000+08:00

ystd service was fun fun n fun!!the service songs n sermon was nice.enjoyable. yeahh.after service..charlene.mindy.liyan.qianshi.meishi.hui.angela.me.serene.amanda.mrs tng.rosanne.n some other ppl were talking outside.was luffing n luffing non-stop.i luff till i squatted on the floorfollowed by mindy.went to look for food at hawker.bought pearly soyabean drink.den went to yakun dere to buy kaya

2005-04-16T12:10:00.000+08:00

alrightt.im jealous!!i juz meant nth to u.

2005-04-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

i found dat im falling deeper for u each day

2005-04-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

today i only enjoyed 2periods.which is geog.enjoy talking to the t'cherwho is ms kareen tan..she reminds me of someone.who always talk to me dat way too.but everything is over since last year alright.shant think abt it anymore.was feeling sick during ss.brought dat pearlynn down to haf some beautiful slps.n me..dere listening the lesson for her.went for np afterdat.really did drills n drills n

2005-04-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

i told myself waiting for uwasnt gg to b of any use if u wont returny muz i spend every minute of my life thinking of u,waiting for u?if i had known earlier dat u wont feel anything for me,anything i do wasnt of any useu left me waiting n aching for u in the dark,keeping the painful truth for me..dat u will nv b baq agn nothingseemstobeabletobringyoubaq

2005-04-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

went to skul kinda early.the bus is travelling faster n faster each day i guess.first period was lit..my grp turn to play the skit.its crap totally.me as ashti n evan as tara??but it was alright afterall.ms ho is bias alright.so fierce today.pms-ing manns.music den chinese.ha angeline came during chinese lesson agn..she's funny la.mdm gong wanna see her.den was like saying??im scaree.

2005-04-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

im too tired to think baq.braincells not working at dis point of time.the pain is killing me.finally did my farewell programme sheet.but hope everyone is okay wif it.i did my best to squeeze everything in 5hrs.i tried my best. but i really duno we really haf the time on dat day nt.will juz pray hard everything wuld go on smoothly.make my own decisions for dis is juz killing me.i cant think

2005-04-12T18:53:00.000+08:00

feel like giving up.breaking down into pieces.everything's gonna be over..listening to dat song.feel like crying.feeling so sick n tired.mayb i shldnt even took dat first step.mayb in the first placei shldnt haf fell for u.mayb in the first placei shldnt haf look into ur eyes.mayb in dat first placewhen i noe i haf alr fell for ui shld juz let it go.and not fall deeper.mayb i shld juz heel ms

2005-04-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

ystd.. went to skul wif pui..no. is saw her in the bus.the assembly was super boring..as usual.bio lesson was stoneing.chinese was doing some reading.i dun even understand.pe was after recess.so din eat.but the pe 2.4 started after whichinvaded into mrs chew's lesson.i did so badly for my 2.4im retaking it.chemistry was revising of work.mrs chew keep asking me y am i so concern abt band??but she

2005-04-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

stupid meishi called me early in the morning.pick up her call den baq to slp.my sis called me up agn to help her find her hp.den baq to slp agnn..woke up at 1plus.had a weird dream agn.shocked.did my stuffs.wasnt even studying for the chem test tmr..went jogging.almost died by all the exercises.baq home.did some of my stuffs.do the 1oyears series.flung the mcq sectionn.go forgetit.did all the

2005-04-09T13:21:00.000+08:00

you are my only oneTheres no doubt in my mind that ure the oneI'd give my heart to all over againthe one whose heartbeat matches my ownthe one whose life is a perfect fit to mineTheres no doubt about itYou are the oneMy only one

2005-04-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

after skul sat in the canteen wif pc.nic.xuebs.siva.beth.ate 5nuggets.dats was how greedy i was.changed to full-u.everyone's luffing.wads new?? i juz looks weird.getting my new uniform soon.yays!!slacked doing some admin stuffs.feeling so slack.wrapped attendance book.did the attendance sheet thingy.slack-ed.dismissed.ate cakes cuz we got champion for netball.still cant forget the time we

2005-04-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

arg!! my napfa sucks..totally.did sbj first.leowy leow took us.he still dere to say nth wrong wif us n the mat.its sth wrong wif him.wads wif him cans?failing everybody.first station alr shoot me wif all the harsh words.-can pass alr n shld b happyy wanna b a perfectionist??dont b so ambitious..its not good.dont b a perfectionist..it wuld drive u crazy-crap la..hello?? im not a perfectionist

2005-04-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

first period was math.had a stupid quiz.did wrongly.how can an angle be 8degree??how stupid can i get?!!no. im smartt.did some factorization qns.me n pearlynn was the first to complete.can go dwnn for early recess.mrs pang cheated me..she say 9den cann go dwn.she said after we finish we can go dwn lo.*hurhs.ate a lil'staed in the canteen.mf said she wanna delicate songs for us.waited but recess

2005-04-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

u taught me the purpose in lifetaught me the importance of hafing purpose in life.i'll tell u..u r the one who makes me look forward to another day.without u..dere wuld b no purpose for me..living in dis world.

2005-04-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

lessons at nornal till geog..the teacher ms kareen tan.. she looks co0l.almost kana tricked by us.after skul.. staed baq to study for math.study halfway..went to play badminton..the stupid wind is like so damn bigden it started to drizzle..baq to study..saw mrs chew.she stalked me studying..haha.. den ltr wanna buy drinks.mrs chew ask us to help her n jin to help her wif ice-creams.we r nice enuf

2005-04-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

okay.im stupid im dumb.i juz cant even get the conversation right.dere goes my day..

2005-04-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

ran for the bus today..cuz i was super late.but came to skul at the same time..the stupid board..made me malu myself 2times.dats y i hate taking bus..went for assembly.dey were talking abt frenship..wasnt even paying attention.but i heard that laz part.abt unacceptable relationships.evan was luffing so fake-ly n loudly.gave her dat pissed off look.n guess wad? she stared at me..went baq to

2005-04-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

had been rushing writting all my laz minute notes.wrote quite alot.but i juz dun understand at all.nothing gets into my head.still thinking of wad happened ystd.mayb i shld juz forget abt everythingn go on wif life.bio test tmr?im juz gonna fail it.i only understand enzymes.the nutritions part.i dun even get a single bit of it.its time for me to wake up.pull up my socks before its too late.but i

2005-04-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

woke up at ard 5..to polish the boots seetoh nd.n guess wad, she din even wear.plus make me bring dat stupid box home.looking so stupid.lucky i put in jin's bag.or i'll really look stupid.went to skul at ard 6plus.saw some np ppl took cab too.trained. my timing for 4oo is 1:31was like so disappointed.den sports day started..was like feeling so scare n all.ran 400 n came in 5th.yays. felt a sense

2005-03-31T21:45:00.000+08:00

kinda regret saying the weird thing to u ystd.if NOT we wuld b like gg tgt tmr.i missed dis hard chance.y did i say it wuld b weird?!!but its really weird.i shldnt even say the WEIRD word.regreted.i juz missed dis hard-earned chance.duno when will i ever haf the chance agn.hais. i really din apprecite it.waiting for the time to ripe

2005-03-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

confused.i nv felt so confuse before.i nv expect u to smile at me.my feelings r so mixed up.im finally make dis big decision in my lifeto gif up on u..but y did u still smile at me?mayb i juz shldnt look into ur eyes juz nw.i thot everything was over after i make the decision.but it started all over agnafter the smile.happy at first but confuse in the end.mixed up.stay

2005-03-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

had bio is klas for 2periods.it's boring.i seriouslu dun understand wad he's teaching abteversince he stepped into my klas n start teaching.totally confused ):had art after dat..leow-ey leow finally come to skul.he shld stay longer in kl.got baq maths test.so many ppl got full marks.wad abt me?still lagging behind.crawling when everyone's running?got baq chinese test.wads dere to b happy of?its

2005-03-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

as long as i can dreamas long as i can think as long as i have memory..i will love u.as long as i have eyes to seen ears to hearn lips to speak..i will love udere's no wherein the world i wanna beexcept in ur armsn as long as dere is timeas long as dere is loveas long as dere is you..i will love u

2005-03-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

went to skul early.still haf time in klas to tie my tie.ha went for assembly..it was boringthe topic is who is gonna take care of the elderly?!!den went baq to klas..had bio..the professor MOO?!! is like so strict.ask miaoting to shuddup.pe was fun + tiring.running n running n running.had chemistry.mrs chew sabo-ed me..lucky i noe how to do the qn cans?or i'll juz die on the spot.lit.. drag the

2005-03-27T09:38:00.000+08:00

ystd..ystd nite went to yolanda's church instead of mine..had fun dere.me n raina were like dere damn early can?den walked to the mama shop buy drinks.n i dun even think its a mama shop.juz some kind of shop.walked baq to the church.n saw letitia n rachel.sat down dere to wait for yolanda n abelin to come.plaed some games.n ate. den go up for service.the service was like damn nice cans?but like

2005-03-26T15:27:00.000+08:00

finally got the tagboard i wann..laz time i wanted it. but the web is in malay.nw its in english.n i got one myself. yays!!

2005-03-26T15:13:00.000+08:00

received dis email..find it quite nice so i shall copy n paste it here.love is a funny stuff which no one seems to understand it. it comes n goes without letting u know. u cant block when it comes n cant stop when it goes.what does love means actually? < L > loving him deeply? < O > olwaes dere for him ? < v > video of happiness? < E > every single dae missing him? or < L > leting him go? < O >

2005-03-26T10:10:00.000+08:00

i did my english n maths le.gosh i feel so guai. im actually guai.ha my sqdmates say so too(:ok.. outt of point.n i spent most of my daysdaydreaming.stuck between

2005-03-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

went to skul ontime today.early in the morning 3klases nd to stand up.wads new man? ms gan hafing pms.had chinese test.it was craps.leaving so many blanks.guess im gonna fail wif flying colors agn.had recess.i cant eat.only cann melt the food in my mouth den swallow it.after skul.before english remedial.saw band ppl gg outt of the skul.walked to see where dey were gg.thot dey r gonna play at the

2005-03-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

i FINALLY get the whole picture right.i felt so stupid trusting u two.i duno y the hell in the first place i did it.i felt like an stupid asshole.felt like getting off ur sight.said so many things yet u act as though nth happened.cant believe im really dat stupid.mayb i shld face it man.its over.im not gonna put my trust in any of u.i felt im a fool.i bet u two r rejoicing manntoday had ard 5

2005-03-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

went to skul wif raina. guess we were like super early?staed in klas for like so long?not used to it.used to go to skul on the dot.had assembly.juz some nonsense.wasnt even listening. wads new? sihui was like sitting so near HER!!how i wish i wuld like fly dereto see HER!!but im juz too late.went baq to klas.got baq results.i did so badly.had some money collections.n lena koh like force EVERYONE

2005-03-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

ystd night talked to raina on the phone till 12plus.for 2hrs plus.n guess we only talked for 1hr.cuz she kept talking to herr sis n bro.n im dere stoning.thnks man. lol.today woke up at ard 9plus.ate n keep finding ppl to go wif mefor the planetshakers concert.i shld haf gone ystd.hurhs. heard dat it was damn damn nice cans?hais. always liddat.ate my lunch at pizza hut wif my cousins n all.so

2005-03-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

im feeling confuse mw.hais.duno wad am i doing.thinking? or wadsoever.everything is happening mann.mayb seetoh is right.i duno how to appreciate till i lose it.hows?!! kinda regretted every single thing i do.think im better off DEAD..

2005-03-18T20:24:00.000+08:00

yays~!!np got champion for the netball match plaed today.so happy.it proves to me dat hard work pays it all(=thot we culdnt even make it to finals.the sjc ppl r all so strong.haha. made fren wif dis GD frm sjc.so funny!! always falling down.den we were playing all the way when the ball dun come to us.dey r nice ppl.den saw siglap instructor.she's so fierce.heard her saying.if u step somemore,

2005-03-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

ok had the shooting course.it was fun shooting.aiming n all.the WORST thing is dat i cant shoot.best man.on tue duno how am i gonna shoot.hais.had netball training after dat.tml haf competition.hope we cann win.n get champion!! yays.

2005-03-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

i had my police knowledge test today.guess dat i'll juz fail wif flying colors.the qns r like so damn tricky?gosh. good luck to me man.enjoyed our laz day at bartley.went to eat wif xue - seetoh after dat.chicken rice.so full nw. juz feel like slping.ok. outt of point.ltr watching movie!! finally man.after a million years?yays!!

2005-03-12T11:55:00.000+08:00

im confused.infact im super confuse.the pain is killing my braincells,i really duno wad to do nwwhen u r not by my side.i din msg u for juz one day..yet nw im dying.i duno how am i gonna survivewhen i dun get to see u for more den one week.i see u everyday..n im alr missing u so badly.can u see?im deeply in love wif u.y cant u gimme 1chance to love u..y mus u ask me to stop msging u?i cant

2005-03-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

i cant hold on anymore.i really cant hold on anymore.i feel like letting go.im not as strong as wad everybody thinks.infact im weak.i really cant stop thinking of u.i noe ur o's is coming.mayb it's time for me to stop disturbing u.as u really cann do v well for ur o's.it's a pain for me to let u go.but if dis really make u happy.im willing.

2005-03-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

morning..lena koh said she gt alot alot of things to settle wif me.indeed alot mans.scaree my lungs outt today.duno which asshole said dat to herr.but i really really hope dat she believes me!!i really dun wanna get her into trouble!!-everything's badd-

2005-03-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

the heats sucks totally to me man.firstly, i fell down.infront of EVERYONE. esp HER!!well, wads new?den the stupid lizard keep luffing.hais.den ltr relay.team gt 6th. thnks to me.i ran too slow.n i caused everything to happen.actually dey wuld do so much better without me running.hais. i juz caused dem to like..*hurhs. but i din mean it..e day u walked away.

2005-03-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

went to skul.the klas door is locked.my tie n everything is like in the klas.n i haf to go see ms gan tmlduring assembly.it's so irritating.i failed my bio test.hais. its like rubbish.disappointed-had pe st8 after recess.ran like 14 rounds.but i cheated!! LOL`.after skul.went to raina's hse wif fatli.suppose to go sihui's hse but i din.feel so meann.im dead tired after everything. ilu__

2005-03-06T14:58:00.000+08:00

im pretty relax nw.hais.but will juz feel v stressed up once the school starts tml.thinking of u n everything?

2005-03-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

i love u too much for me to let u go.-thinking of u-

2005-03-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

lessons were ok.got baq my english n chem test pp.wad it wasnt well done thou i pass.so disapointed in myself.but wad is done is done.after skul.stayed in klas.ltr went for netball training.i shall b really v st8forward nw.JASMINE SUCKS!!goodness.i admit dat im lousy in netball.but r u really dat good till u haf the right to insult me or even humilate me.im kind enuf nt to scold u.n u thot i've

2005-03-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

as i was walking to skulkana caught by ferng on the way to skul.den went for assembly.lena koh was like catching ppl for belts.i din get caught.when i go baq to klas.saw her cutting belts.den she turn to me.ww im gonna cut urs.cuz urs has alot of excess.wth lorr. mine is like NOT LOSE!!den b lim talked to us.how unreasonable can she get man.after skul went to see the big birdtalked to us for like

2005-03-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

since u been gone by kelly clarksonHere's the thingWe started out friendsIt was cool, but it was all pretendYeah, yeah, since you been goneYou dedicated, you took the timeWasn't long, till I called you mineYeah, yeah, since you been goneAnd all you'd ever hear me sayIs how I pictured me with youThat's all you'd ever hear me sayBut since you been goneI can breathe for the first timeI'm so movin'

2005-03-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

i was damn moody the whole morning.duno y. think its cuz of the run.played bball n was late for klas.den haf to stand bhind the klas for 2weeks.hais. badd day.went for heats.was ok. nth much happen.den ltr did the long jump.n lena koh caught me for earsticks.she wanna like gimme 5dp n 5dc.after dat i'll nt b in skul.how bias can she get?y she kip picking on me?wads her prob?went to meet raina at

2005-02-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

i had a BORING bio lesson.the t'cher is like gg so fast.i was copying the notes so fast like shit.n NOT listening in klas.nxt test. i'll juz fail!!ha. chinese.recess n den pe.plaed bball n ran 5rds/i cheated!! i only ran 3rds i think.haha. wads new?went for art den lit den eng.had geog test,sure fail de.i put the kranji war memorial at the wrong place pls.lost-ed the mark.went to the kfc makanmy

2005-02-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday..woke up at ard 8 n went to meet hui, mich n angela.walked to the bus stop n it started raining.hais. den went to hf to makan wif hui, mich n angela.the glass jelly sucks man.taste like shit though i nv taste the shit before.met fangs, bird, jinjin n puiwent sentosa tog.went to buy one fake volleyball.played in the water.den fangs, hui, mich n meswam to the float dere n slp.had a nice

2005-02-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

reached skul early.cann say so la.had lit. followed by bio test.was like so difficult. see alr wanna faint le.im all ready to fail.after recess was suppose to haf geog test.but we tried all means to persuade xiaobaicai to postpone it.n we succeeded. yays~!!plaed during geog lesson.kana punish n was suppose to throw all the rubbish-es.lol`. yeah. had maths. the trigometic is damn diff.cant

2005-02-23T19:51:00.000+08:00

i practiced for my high jump today.it was terribly done.i only cann pass 1.1m which is the passing mark for tml.n it was juz lucky when i pass.oh manns.im juz gonna die beautifully tml.gosh!! help.i really cant do it!!

2005-02-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

met minghwee-siewhwee-puiling at the busstop where im suppose to take my bus.den met pauline n meilan on the bus.den stupid minghwee tell ppl abt it AGN!!i hate it man.den noe alot of things.feeling sadd n confuse by the time happy too.abit contradicting.but i really really hate the feeling of being confused.i duno la. after skul went to plcC play netball.was fun!! but the coach din turn up

2005-02-19T12:27:00.000+08:00

ystd slept at 1plus.did my nyaa stuffs.den studied a lil' for my lit.hope i can rbm on monday during the test.many things had been happening recentlyesp. to me myself n i.ewverything happens on thurs afternoon.shant say much.juz hope dat everything wuld b over.cry.my.heart.outt

2005-02-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

went to skul.took bus25.saw lotz n lotz of pl lites in the bus.ok. she was upstairs.i can sense her presence. like real.lessons after lessons.so boring sia. nth much to do man.after skul.went library.avtually wanna wait for her de.but in the end nv.cuz everybody nid to go home.so i went home. vanessa ho SUX!! ok. shan b mean.feeling so depressed.duno wadta thinking mans.

2005-02-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

took the sama sama bus frm her!!yays. abit crazy la.but din dare to look behind.saw mojojojo on the bus AGN!!was kinda ok the whole day.the best part is the inspirational compo.can do anywhere in the skul except the canteen to write the compo.quite fun. yeah.after skul.ate. sat outside the staffroom.saw ms kok. said i wanna talk to her some day.den said halfway.cried. was kinda stupid.i duno y i

2005-02-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

hais. i think i'll juz siam off frm her. i shall stop disturbing her frm nw on. mayb i juz duno how she feel. i really duno howta do nw. feeling so lost n confuse. scaring her away wad i always do. i cant stand it anymore. the more i think the worse i feel. breakdown__

2005-02-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

wad number r u? 21th [number3] you r a person of hard hearted, selfish most pf the times, religious, loves to climb up in ur life. you always tend to haf alot of problems wif ur family in ur early stages but u will put up wif everything. u haf strong word power, pretty happy face, so wherever u go, u always haf got wad u wanted!!n from the birth u always wantedto work hard in order to achieve

2005-02-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

jie kou by jay fan zhe wo men de zhao pian xiang nian luo yin luo xian qu nian de dong tian wo men xiao de hen tian kan zhe ni ku ti de lian dui zhe wo shuo zai jian lai bu ji ting jian ni yi jing zhou de hen yuan ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou wo zhi dao zhi zi cuo guo qing zai ge wo yi ge li you shuo yi bu ai wo jiu shuang shi wo bu dong neng bu neng yuan liang wo

2005-02-09T11:27:00.000+08:00

ystd was so irritated. woke up at 0645. took cab to skul n found out dat i was early actually. go to the hall for some rubbish performance. was so bored dere. stoning. after dat went to chong boon sec wif xue n seetoh to get xue's wallet. went to j8 ltr. bought shoes plus visit yuanli. ate at mac. i ate the fastest. lol. agn leh agn leh. went to buy some stuffs. saw one specs i like alot. but my

2005-02-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

think my comp is lagging man. tag one time. din come out. second time. din too. third time? wah every posts come out. so irritated by it. went to skul ALONE. suppose to meet hwee. but she was like v early? den on the bus saw mojojojojoojo. looking so stupid. haha. i din mean but its true. went to skul. got down the bus n realize she's on the bus too. yays. went for lessons. got baq my bio test.

2005-02-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

i haf always been the one telling u how i feel. but y cant dis time b another way round? y cant u tell me how u feel. i dont mind u telling me u haf no feeling for me. at least its the truth. i like u. dats how i feel. i nv wanted u to b together wif me. n i oso noe dat dis kind of things cannot b forced or sth. but i really duno howta say. ppl always tell me dat i wont b sad cuz i alway

2005-02-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

alomost cried laz night. can feel the tears liek coming out. n im like forcing it baq in. i think i shldnt b at hm alone anymore. i will break down!! these words keep flowing in my brains u might think i dont look but deep inside in the corner of my mind im attached to you im weak its true cuz im afraid to know the answers do u wan me too? cuz my heart keeps falling faster i've waited all my

2005-02-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

im hafing a depression nw. guess im staying hm alone dat's y thinking of lotz of things. i duno y i feel so sad. get jealous on such a small thing. juz bcuz she say bye to everyone EXCEPT me. v confuse nw. wads wrong liking u. u made me like u. u broke my heart. telling me u haf no feeling for me. yes. i expected. but i din noe u wuld b so st8 forward. u held me so high. n let go of me.

2005-02-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

i went to skul on time today!! yays. haha. saw her when i was walking in. looking at her backview. so cute!! haha. smiling all the way. kama caught for earsticks agn, but dis time only one cuz she din see the rest as its too short. went baq to klas. kana scoldings by ho. failed my lit. feeling so moody. i've failed like almost all of my tests. i flunk my chinese + english + lit. i only pass my